Somehow, to stop loving someone is not an easy thing. It would take some time before I can accept the fact she is not mine anymore. Everything happens for a reason. I'm too drowning in my temptation of love make me forget my Rabb. I get my lesson. Ya Allah, I need your help to give me strength so that I can keep walking in this vicious world.
Few days ago, we just celebrated Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I've seen enough joy in everyone while I'm standing in misery side. What else I can do? I keep pretending that everything is ok but only god knows what deep inside there. Not being in relationship doesn't mean the end of the world. I do realised, if we are looking for Allah's love, it will last forever because our Rabb will always love us no matter what. Once we chasing human's love, it doesn't offer us a permanent joy.
I've just received an offline message at my YM from someone who read this crappy blog. She is from Indonesia. I have no idea that there are people out there who take a look at my blog since there is nothing interesting here I think. By the way, nice to know you, Mbak Wulan Anggrainy. Hope we can be a good friend. (^_~)v
Time is a great cure. Time will make us forget the pain. Time will give us more space to breath. Time will make us mature. Time will heal those broken-hearts. I always pray to Rabb mercy to sending me another love, so that I can forget this pain and breathing again. For now, I will make myself busy with my assignment and other thing. Help me to get rid out this painful memory. I would like to thanks to everyone who give me a lots of support, my bestiest; Akmal, Faiz, Ain, Mai Sarah Elisa.. And so much thank to this two girl who are voluntarily lending their ears to listen to all my mumbling; Faten Naseha and Suliana. I don't know what will happen without you two. I'm such a drama queen... Haha.. I don't really remember how Faten can be my close friend. Thing just happen and she is really a nice girl. Great to have her as my buddy.
I think, we always wish this life could be like a computer, we just can simply slam the delete button to erase the painful data/memory. We always wish we can but we cannot. I just realised that these memory will be a guidance to every of us in future, make us mature, let us be a better man. In Al-Quran, Rabb has promise to us that joy will come after pain. I believed so. I always believe... I'm looking forward for that moment...
Hasbi yallahu wa niqmal wakil..
~cukuplah Allah sebagai pembantuku. Aku tidak menginginkan selainnya~