Goodbye Love....

For many years I've been thinking, for how long I will be a scout. Forever? once a scout, always a scout? Ermmm... I am 22 years old now. What I had achieved in scouting is beyond my expectation. I never dreamt I will be at this stage. But sometimes, you have to look back and evaluate whether what we have done is right or wrong. I am in the right place, right situation, right time but it is wrong way.

Everything in this world have starting point & end point. I choose to end here. What will happen next? What I'm thinking ? What I'm gonna do? What is really happen here? What is the reason? .... haih~ I don't know. I just want to end all this....

Life is wonderful. I want to choose another path to reach the top of my life. Scouting is good, but maybe now I change, maybe I want to face something new. Get Scout rid of my life is one of the hardest challenge ever be. But life have another thousand thing to try.

Scout teach me to be a great person. Scout teach me many thing. Scout is a great teacher, but somehow, you have to leave your 'teacher'. So that you can try to face this world on your own & practicing yet applying the knowledge you gain from your 'teacher' to test your understanding level upon the knowledge you learn before.

That's all.... I don't want to be greedy... Let new scout have this position. I know there is still lot of thing I can learn from my 'teacher' if I stay. However, deep in my heart, I want to be just me, walking in this world without my 'teacher's' supervision so that my 'teacher' can be proud of me for what I've done to my life..

Happy scouting to my friend. May God always be with you.

Unclear : Anything Can Happen

Erm..
I took quite a moment to wrote this time after went missing for a while..

I'm pretty close to my target of life. Gonna finish my diploma. Then, start my degree. But the closer I am, thing get unclear indeed. Sometimes, we do have target and it seems to be we chose another path to reach there. What we got is total different thing from our initial plan.

I was planning to finish my master. Then, find a good job, buy a big house and nice car and start a family life with someone. Well you know, English epigram says "get ducks in the row". That is what life is about doesn't it?.. to achieve something.. I don't know.. things becomes complicated. I'm getting confuse, depressed and dull.

Long time ago, I was dreaming I'm gonna be an engineer. I'm perform great during my SPM during studied technical subject. It's was great back there. But, who knows today I'm doing majoring in business development..

Few years back, I'm just ordinary boy scout. Always been left behind. When I was a cub scout, I was so weak, slow in learning, low performance. In Shorts, nothing special about me. I always frustrated with my scoutmaster since he never chose me to go to any scout event. I'm simply attending weekly meeting. That' s all, nothing more. But today, I'm top of my scouting life. I'm the king of my kingdom, I'm a decision maker, I'm the ruler, I'm the one who control them.


When I was a kid, I've been bullied by elder, involved in fight, doing vulgar thing to girls, lied to my parent, 'skodeng', watch immoral video on internet and lots more.. Is that make me bad?.. I have no idea. I am what I am today. Stand on my own feet, walking through pain and develop new self-esteem yet improving my moral. I was a head prefect, I was head of club, I was head of most of the thing in my life.

That is the whole point. Nobody knows what is gonna happen to their life.. The past doesn't mean anything.

The moment I write this post, I am in love. So badly to tell her how much I love her. But it is being stop by the obligation I carried. I am a son to my parent, a brother to my sister, an uncle to my niece and nephew. There's lots more element in my life that I haven't complete them yet. Love is one of them, but not now.

Urrghhh.. I'm deeply in dilemma. Am I getting older to slowly or I'm getting matured to fast?

Life's wonderful. you never know what comes next. Anything Can Happen.....

Mess Up Life...

Did you ever facing the situation where you have a lot of important thing to settle down in a very tight and stressful time? Then you start to rebel and taking uncertain action because you’re in deep dilemma. Here I am again. Endless waiting! Empty mind with anticipates for unknown answer.

This month is going to be a chaotic month. I have to manage a very tight and busy schedule of my daily routine. I’m going to participate in 1st National Local Scout Jamboree Chonburi, Thailand on 22nd to 30th December and two days earlier, there are also 1st KLKM Convention I need to take care of. This is my second camping in Thailand. Hell no, now I’m in dilemma again. Right away after I come back from Thailand, there will be a Mid-semester test. Aiyooo!!! Even though I only take two subjects for this semester, but both subject is killing subject. This is my last semester for diploma and I always hope I can perform very well but it seems that it's fail to be in that way though.

Many scout programme will be held during this month. My weekend full with activities. I got no problem with this busy daily life, but it is very super-duper annoying when you had a lecturer who never interested to know your problem and the fact is; they are the source of your problem. My Business law lecturer is kind of simply change the class as she wishes and that is total mess up. It ruins my entire plan since she simply ask us to have a class in Saturday or Sunday depend o her mood without prior notice. What the hell. It is sick... total sick... Syiot betol...

Long Journey Of My Life

Aite now I'm in semester break.. damn so much activities I'd done.. Spend 1 whole month to Asia Pacific Regional Scout Youth Forum and finishing my scout wood-badge course. Pheww!!! tired... my semester break has 2 week left.. Gosh!!! worry bout my result coz this semester I didn't perform well I guess. So much playing.

Next semester gonna be my last semester for diploma and I plan to pursue my degree in Industrial Management after all. another 2 years for degree.. and 2 years for master... Haiyee!!! so long to wait before can married lol!!!.. Hurm.. next year must be a hectic and busy year since got a lot of obligation and work awaiting for me.. Scout oh scout....
Lots I've learn during APR Scout Youth Forum.. Very precious moment and experiences that cannot simply gain from the streets.. I had gone through the hard work and busy time. Teach me a lot of thing.

I didn't sleep well for few week. Lots of thing in my mind.. Look up on the ceiling and thinking about life, love, future, job, parent, friend.. I'm getting 22 years old next year and all the memory rest in my past time and never come back again.. Everything happen in my daily life teach me to be matured.. Again!! my life path change with new sail of spirit and obligation.
I always hope tomorrow will coming with better opportunity and desire.

Pernah ada rasa cinta
Antara kita..
Kini tinggal kenangan
Ingin ku lupakan semua tentang dirimu,
Namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu oh bintangku....
Jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku,
disini aku merindukan dirimu,
Kini kucuba mencari penggantimu,
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu, oh kekasih...
Saleem _ Tinggal Kenangan.mp3

Touching lol!!!

Dinner MPKLKM Middle Territory II

Honorary Guest:
With Uniform; Mr. Amir Muzammir Musa, ADC (Training)
White Shirt: Mr. Nursyamsu Rahmat Zainuddin, ADC (Administration)

Photo session after the meeting..

Watch Out.... Makan baik-baik aaaaa.....

The Last Cannibal

On 15th July 2009, KLKM MSU has organised dinner with KLKM partner in our territory.

We had invited KLKM Unisel and KLKM PSA to join our dinner. Unfortunately,due to several problems, KLKM PSA is the only partner who managed to send the representative to the dinner.

A dinner held at MSU/PTPL College Mock Kitchen which being managed by Culinary Art Student. Interestingly, the Chef for our food is our Kelanasiswa Assistant Commissioner, Chef Amir Muzammir.

After a long dinner, we had a small discussion upon the programme “Kembara Pelestarian Pengakap” which will be held on 31 July & 1 August 2009. This programme will involve most Rover Scouts around Selangor, secondary school Scout and KLKM Middle Territory.

This is the first programme of MPKLKM Middle Territory II.

Thank you for both girl from KLKM PSA for spending some times for this event